I've had several conversations about how sometimes I just wish I kept to myself and didn't form close relationships with anyone here because it seems that eventually there is always a "goodbye." Of course I realize that is not healthy and I have chosen to create some amazing relationships with some pretty awesome people.
But there is this "goodbye" that is coming and I am dreading it. I've even so much as started researching how to handle staying on the mission field when others leave. Tonight on Facebook the article below popped up in my newsfeed...thank you God for making it so simple! ;)
This article is titled: "To The One Who Is Left Behind". I always felt that coming to Haiti was so much easier for me than the family and friends that I left behind. I was going onto new adventures and creating a new normal. They were surrounded by the memories of our time together everyday. Now, that is me. I'm stuck in the same place surrounded by the memories that were created and my friends are onto new adventures.
Change is hard. This new season is going to be a great one, but it will take some getting used too. I am thankful for the friends and relationships that I have that will still be here with me. God is good for allowing me to be able to keep some good friends close by. :)
I also think about my little man and how I want to protect him from the pain. He's seen so many people in and out of his life. I don't want him to become hardened or just think that everyone he meets is going to one day walk out of his life. But how do you protect your child from that living on mission field with so many "Hellos and Goodbye"?? I don't have the answer but I'm praying.
Take a moment to read the following article if you can relate to being the one who is left behind. Please pray for us in the upcoming weeks and try to figure out how to say our "goodbyes."
There are many people that I could list off that I am going to miss but this woman has been a true God-sent. She will admit that when I first came she was that excited about it, but look at us now...were doing crazy stuff all throughout Haiti together!
She has been a saint to live with and has really become like an auntie to my little man. She has kept us sane, cooked us wonderful meals, traveled with us, given me 'mom breaks', and above all has loved us deeply with so much grace.
To the One Who is Left Behind